Saturday, March 30, 2013

My Praying Cherub for the Garden


It is the little things that have become so important to me!  A friend of mine gave me a gift card and I am so happy with my newest purchase for the garden.  Is not my praying cherub one of the cutest things you have ever seen?  Maybe not the most practical use of a gift card, but no one can put a price on the JOY this little cherub will bring me every time I come to the garden alone.  And with Easter being tomorrow, what better reminder that we should pray, give thanks and praise our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

Friday, March 29, 2013

Moulin Rouge


While I was homeless and jobless, I was given the opportunity to attend the Culinary Arts Training (CAT) program at the Santa Barbara City College.  In my possession is a certificate which qualifies me as a chef and I also earned a five year management Serve Safe credential. 

Last night, I decided to apply and practice my trade.  To start, I made an artichoke and hearts of palm salad with fresh spring greens, toasted split almonds and petite red tomatoes drizzled with a raspberry vinaigrette dressing which I made from fresh raspberries.  To practice my baking, I rolled out crescent rolls from scratch.

For the main entrée, I made chicken cacciatore John Thomas style.  Fresh red and green peppers sliced in strips with mushrooms, onions and black olives smothered in a homemade Italian tomato sauce.  After browning and baking the chicken, I sauté the chicken which I deboned in the sauce.  After about an hour, I place the chicken on the plate with spaghetti and pour the sauce over both.  For color, I add steamed broccoli and stuffed mushrooms. 

I pop in the musical Moulin Rouge and I am transported back in time to the year 1988 when Donn went to the Moulin Rouge for the first time.  One of the best nights of his life, Donn remembers being with friends including Joyce Koenig.  Joyce Koenig had arranged for Donn to be chosen to be selected to perform on stage.  She had also arranged for the entire party to be at the head table front and center.  It was the time of his life. 

You may be wondering what Donn was asked to perform?  He was chosen to be the ventriloquist's dummy.  The ventriloquist spoke in French so he had no idea what was being said.  Donn just opened and closed his mouth whenever the ventriloquist signaled.  The audience howled and internet lingo ROFL.  Maybe the comedian was making a fool out of him but in Donn's mind, he was a STAR!

What a wonderful evening!  Some of the best food I have ever made.  Great memories of the Moulin Rouge.  A great musical to dine with.  The only thing missing was YOU!

Thursday, March 28, 2013

One of My Favorite Places


Physically I may be in Santa Barbara.  However, during Holy week, my mind and spirit are in Big Sur.  Over a decade ago, I was contemplating on becoming a monk.  Unfortunately, I became the male version of Maria from "The Sound of Music" and the abbot told me that "I was not an asset for their abbey."  Although I was not chosen, my heart and soul were given to God to be set apart for His purposes.  If you are unable to find me, you are certain to know that I am at one of my favorite places in the world communing with my Savior.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Indecent Proposal


Donnie is a paranoid schizophrenic with a bipolar disorder who struggles with depression, anxiety and stress.  One of the voices he hears or one of the personalities he talks to some of the time name is Donn.  Donnie was kind enough to introduce me to Donn recently.  Here is a picture when Donn was in Greece in 1988.  Recently Donn was in Santa Barbara, California.

Donn was walking on State street and someone thought he was a prostitute.  The man offered him $10.00 to have sex with him.  When Donn declined, the old man paused and then offered him $20.00 dollars.  Again, Donn declined.  The old man was very persistent and determined and said, "You drive a hard bargain, I will give you $50.00 and that is my final offer."

"First of all, I am not bargaining with you."  Donn told the old man.  "Second, I find your final offer to your indecent proposal an insult."  Donn continued.  "I suppose I should consider your offer to be flattering but you merely have made me feel dirty all over.  I have no need to speak with you anymore but I will pray for your soul."  With that, Donn continued on his way leaving the old man behind.

I am still uncertain why Donn was in Santa Barbara and/or I am not sure why Donnie introduced me to this man.  However, I am pleased to know that Donnie feels comfortable to talk to me about him and I am very pleased how Donn handled the situation on State street.  I am uncertain how I would respond.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Election Results


"Maybe this time, I'll win!"

The election results are in.  I won.

Instead of being part of the problem, now I can be part of the solution.
Instead of feeling like a taker, now I have a chance of giving back.
Instead of feeling useless and worthless, now I have a chance to make a difference.

It Really feels great to be a winner!

Monday, March 25, 2013

Election Day

Today is Election Day at the Mental Wellness Center.  I have been asked to run as a candidate for the Center Council.  If elected, it will be my task to listen to the needs of the clients and try to make changes to improve the Center for everyone.  We will also be tasked with the responsibility of planning special field trips and holiday celebrations.  Hopefully, I will be elected and I will have a chance to give back to an incredible organization who helped me when I was "down and out" and at one of the lowest and deepest pits of depression in my life.  Please say a prayer or keep your fingers crossed for me.  I will let you know the results tomorrow!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Happy Palm Sunday


Normally, you would find me at mass on Palm Sunday.  Not this year.  This year I had to meet with a doctor I have never met before for a psychiatric exam.  The Department of Social Services do not trust my doctors and nurses who have treated me for the past two years.  Magically, in one hour, a psychiatrist is going to determine my mental health.  First of all, it is very hard to talk to someone I do not know about my mental illness.  Knowing the psychiatrist has been hired to determine if I am malingering or have a "factitious disorder" is quite depressing and disheartening.

However, I know that God is looking out for me.  Before I left for my appointment, I sensed that I should check my mailbox.  I was delighted to find a card from my Mother.  The words, "I've been longing for you... was on the outside of the card with a picture of a dachshund.  On the inside,  the words, "I miss you!"  What perfect timing.  Naturally, I cried.

When I completed my appointment with the psychiatrist, I was happy to see Carmen, a social worker from the Casa Esperanza in the waiting area.  I had not seen her since I left the transitional living facility to move to my new apartment.  It was SO good to see her.  We hugged and had a wonderful conversation.  She promised to tell everyone at the "casa" that I send my love.

Although I was not at church today, I felt closer to God than ever.  I knew God was with me and I also knew that I had family and friends with me.

Hope you have a wonderful Palm Sunday too!

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Beethoven's Violin Concerto


Feeling totally blessed, my friend Hahn took me to see Beethoven's Violin Concerto performed by the Santa Barbara Chamber Orchestra at the Lobero Theatre on Friday night.  Rob Kapoilow did an awesome job conducting and leading an hour-long discussion and demonstration of the piece, followed by a 15-minute intermission, a performance of the piece in full, and a question-and -answer session.

Chee-Yun was the soloist.  She was the winner of the 1989 Young Concert Artists International auditions and the 1990 Avery Fisher Career Grant.  Chee-Yun performs regularly with the world's foremost orchestras, including the Philadelphia Orchestra, the London Philharmonic, and the Toronto, Houston, Seattle, Pittsburgh, and National Symphony orchestras.  She was phenomenal.

Hahn and I walked to and from the theatre on a beautiful moonlit night.  The stars were sparkling in the Santa Barbara ski as well as on the stage.  I hope we have a chance to go again in the future.  It was a wonderful evening.  Thank you Hahn, Rob and Chee-Yun!

The Life of Pi


Truly I am blessed here in Santa Barbara.  There are many concerned and generous people here who are aware of my financial plight.  Thursday I was given tickets and was able to take Donnie to see the movie, "The Life of Pi" at the incredible Arlington Theatre.

Donnie was so fascinated to see the movie in 3D.  He so identifies with the main character of Pi.  Just like the boy Pi, Donnie also fell in love with the Tiger.  His favorite part of the movie was when Pi held the head of the tiger in his lap.  His least favorite part of the movie was when the tiger walked off into the jungle leaving Pi alone and exhausted on the beach.  Donnie cried along with Pi.  It was as if both these boys were suffering from broken hearts.

The good news is "The Life of Pi" is the middle of the story for the main character.  Likewise, Donnie is in the middle of his story.  God has a plan for his life and awaits patiently for God to direct him on the rest of his journey.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

A Gift from My Neighbor

Jasminum Officinale [White Jasmine]

Yesterday I wrote a thank you card to my neighbor Karen.  I let her know how much I enjoy her garden every time I come or go from my apartment.  This morning I woke up and found a card and a small vase filled with Jasmine.  Inside the card, she had enclosed two packets of tea and invited me over to her apartment for the complete tour of the incredible garden she has been working on.  The Jasmine is so fragrant my entire apartment is filled with the aroma from this delicate flower.  How wonderful it will be to meet with my friend Karen for tea! 

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

My newest plant in my Garden



I am happy to announce that the newest plant in my garden is a Gardenia.  Hopefully, the rest of my plants do not get jealous.  The Gardenia has the richest and deepest dark green leaves and has the most beautiful velvety white flowers.  There are over thirty buds that are about to bloom.  My hope is that some of those incredible flowers bloom in time for Easter.  I can hardly wait to bask in the fragrance each flower produces.  God certainly knew what He was doing when he created this floral plant.  I wonder which brings more joy to God's heart; the beauty of this plant or the Joy that fills my heart having this gardenia in my garden?  The question is rhetorical.

Monday, March 18, 2013

LISTENING

When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice, you have not done what I asked.

When I ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell me why I shouldn't feel that way,
   you are trampling on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me and you feel you have to say something to solve my problem,
   you have failed me, strange as it may seem.

Listen!  All I ask is that you listen, not talk or do...just hear me.

When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself,
   you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.

And I can do for myself, I'm not helpless.  Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.

But when you accept as simple fact that I do feel what I feel, no matter how irrational,
   than I can quit trying to convince you and get about the business of understanding what's behind
   this irrational feeling.  And when that's clear, the answers are obvious and I don't need advice.

Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what's behind them.

So please listen and just hear me.  And if you want to talk, wait a minute for your turn,
   and I will listen to you.

Words of Wisdom by Ralph Roughton

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Happy St. Patrick's Day

While most people were eating corned beef and cabbage and drinking green beer,   I have spent the last two days training at the Alternative to Violence Project (AVP).  It is a workshop designed to train facilitators to work in prison ministries and to work within our communities to bring peaceful solutions to volatile environments.  I am happy that I am focused on making a difference in the world as small as it might be.  This seminar was a "defining moment" for me!  The best lesson of all was they gave me better tools to learn the gift of listening.

The Advanced Training Workshop will be held on the 6th and 7th of April.  I am Really looking forward to being there and being present.

Hope you had a Happy St. Patrick's Day too!

Friday, March 15, 2013

They call me the God(fish) Father

What are the different types of aquarium?

At the mental wellness center, we have an aquarium with goldfish.  Being that they were looking neglected and uncared for, I volunteered to be in charge of taking care of them.  A new tank, fresh plants, a new filter and the goldfish look better than ever.  One of the staff members announced that I am "The Godfish Father." 

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Birthday Wish

As most of you know, I am not one to celebrate my birthday!  This year is going to be different.  My birthday wish from all of you is for you to send me your favorite picture of you and me.  What I intend to do with the picture is to frame it and put it on my prayer wall.  Reality is that I will never have the chance to see most of you ever again to get a new picture.  However, once your favorite memory of us is displayed on my wall, I will have the JOY of being able to have you tangibly present every moment I gaze upon my wall. 


Here are some of the pictures presently hanging on my wall.


These are some of the best times of my life and I want to be sure they include YOU!


This will be the BEST birthday I have ever had!

PLEASE send your picture to:

John Thomas
617 Garden Street
Suite 311
Santa Barbara, California  93101

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I Come to the Garden Alone


One of the greatest joys in my life is to commune with Jesus in my garden.  Living at the garden street apartments, I think it would be a sin if I did not have a garden of my own.  Hope you enjoy hearing the classic hymn sung by Elvis Presley.

Monday, March 11, 2013

My bathroom is a religious experience...

My bathroom is completely brand new.  The walls are a lush egg white.  All the fixtures, the sink, bathtub and toilet are a pure white.  Whenever I need to clean up, shower or excrete waste from my body, I am reminded of Psalm 51:2.  "Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin."

There is a five drawer cabinet that I built by hand.  It also is pure white and reminds me how my Savior was also a carpenter.  On top of the cabinet is an antique china plate with purple grapes, red cherries, and yellow pears.  It reminds me of the fruits of the Spirit.  On top of the plate is a purple vase with with the most beautiful silk white roses you have ever seen.  White roses stand for purity, innocence, silence, reverence and humility.  The roses being made of silk remind me I am an eternal being.

There is a shower curtain made of pure white linen.  Opposite is an unused purple towel representing colors reserved for royalty.  "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people of his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkenss into his marvelous light."  1 Peter 2:9  The lights in the bathroom are motion sensitive.  Therefore, when I walk into the darkness, the lights automatically come on.

Yesterday I had the best time with Donnie.

"How would you like to create a world with me and God today, Donnie?"

"That sounds great!"  Donnie jumped for joy.

"Do you see this empty space?  There is nothing here but air, right?" 

"Right"  Donnie agreed.

Someone gave us a gift card to the local pet shop so we headed to Milpass Road to create our world.  There was every color of gravel you could imagine and combinations thereof.  Guess what color Donnie picked?  It is a rhetorical question.  Anyone who knows Donnie knows that he would pick the color purple.  At first, Donnie picked out a green and purple plastic plant but I showed him some real plants and he was head over heals for the wisteria plant. 

Choosing which Beta fish was an excruciating ordeal.  There were almost one hundred different Betas to choose from.  Different kinds.  Different colors.  Different sizes.  I enjoyed watching Donnie go from fish to fish.  Talking to each one.  He almost made his decision but made a last minute change for the deep blue and maroon Crowntail Beta.

"Are you sure?"  I said.

"He looked at the fish he was holding in his hand, looked back at all the other betas, and then looked at me and said, "I'm sure."

While Donnie was looking for the particular beta he desired.  I found some plant bulbs that you plant in the gravel and are guaranteed to grow.  "How would you like to get some magic bulbs, Donnie?"

Donnie's eye lit up as only a five year old kids could, "That would be fantastic!"

We asked the pet shop man which food he recommended and picked up some water treatment drops to make the water safe for Donnie's new fish.  When we went to the counter to check out, it was a mini miracle that everything we purchased added up to almost the exact amount of the gift card.

Donnie was so excited to get back home to create our new world.  We were talking back and forth so much that I chuckled that others thought I was some "crazy" person talking to myself.  They were unaware that Tinkerbell had sprinkled her magic dust all over Donnie.  Donnie was invisible.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Choose...

to live by choice, not by chance;

to make changes, not excuses;

to be motivated, not manipulated;

to excel, not to compete.

I choose self-esteem, not self-pity.

I choose to listen to my inner voice,

Not the random opinion of others.


I choose to be me.




"there is no set path,  just follow your heart"  ~ author unknown

Friday, March 8, 2013

Look at Me, I'm


My friend Craig was upset with me and said "You have become the male version of Sandra Dee!  You do not drink, no drugs, do not smoke cigarettes, you no longer gamble and now you tell me that you are not going to have sex until you are married."

Although he meant this as a criticism, I embrace his words as a compliment.  To some I may have become quite boring.  For me,  I am much happier without all my former vices.  I feel like a completely different person.  Indeed, I am.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

A Figment of Donnie's Imagination

Sometimes I have no idea of who I am.  Donnie is a mentally ill little boy trapped inside a fifty-four year old body.  To the best of my knowledge, Donnie is the core personality of all of us.  Donnie was no longer able to cope with the turmoil of the harsh realities of his life so he created me.  I, John Thomas, am merely a figment of Donnie's imagination.  My primary purpose is to take care of him.

If you were to visit Santa Barbara, no one would know who Donnie is.  Everyone knows this breathing individual as John Thomas.  Of course, there is a man named Donald who pays the bills for us all.  As for me, I am starting life over.  As of February, I became a resident of Santa Barbara.  Donnie is so happy that he is no longer homeless.  My spiritualiy embraces all faiths.  It is my belief that we can learn from every faith.  This is much better than argueing over the differences.  My occupation is being a writer.  Even if I am the worst writer in the world, it brings me great comfort to sit behind a keyboard and express my thoughts.  If among all the ramblings of this blog, I am able to help even one person, my life will have purpose and meaning.

Donnie refused to have open heart surgery.  I had the open heart surgery in October, 2012.  Donnie refuses to take medicine.  I take a cabinet full of medications to help Donnie with his depression, heart, bipolarity, and schizophrenia.  Donnie has no energy to even get out of bed sometimes.  It is my duty to keep him active with a regular routine, healthy meals, exercise, and tapping into the spiritual realm. 

Our life is very similar to one of a monk.  We feed the homeless, help the mentally ill, collect clothes for those without, show compassion to those with addictions, and pray.  The most important thing is prayer.  One lesson we have learned is to never pray for something or someone we can do ourself.

The best thing we do is to spend time with God.  Although we talk to much, we are learning to listen.  Just LISTEN!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

I Left My Heart in ...


For many people the song goes, "I left my heart in San Francisco..."  Not for me.  I left my heart in Santo Domingo.  This picture captures one of the greatest moments of my life.


"Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world, red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight.  Jesus loves the little children of the world."  How precious are these boys?


From left to right, Carlos, me, Joche Sanche and Randy Sparks.  Randy and I made our first trip to the Dominican Republic in 1997.  It was a defining moment in my life.  One of the reasons was that these children were so happy and had so little.  There were hundreds of children but none touched my heart like Joche Sanche.  I love Joche as if he were my own son.  The great news is that I shared the gospel with Joche and he invited Jesus Christ to live in his heart.  Although I have not seen Joche for almost a decade, I find comfort to know that we will spend eternity in heaven together with God as our Father.

Eyes, Hair, Hands, Makeup


Dolly returned to Santa Barbara after her visit to Hollywood.  The Mental Wellness Center had "Spa Day" as some of the students and graduates from Paul Mitchell salon had volunteered their services to the clients at the Center.  You would have thought Dolly was Madonna as she pranced from station to station to get her eyes, hair, hands and makeup done.  Some of the clients told her how wonderful she looked.  Dolly was very happy as it made her feel like a Star!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Cleaning House

Have you ever noticed when you start cleaning your house, everything else looks dirty?  That is how it is with me regarding sin.  Whenever I focus on cleaning house or the depravity of my heart, the immensity of my sin overwhelms me.  "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."  That includes St. Francis of Assisi, Mother Teresa and my friend, Tim Page.

One of the things I used to believe was that I was a much better sinner than I was a Christian.  This is just not true.  I am a horrible sinner.  A good sinner would show no remorse for his sins.  As for me, I continue to repent over and over and over each and every sin I have ever committed.  As each day goes by, the sins add up.  Over the years, it is no wonder I am overwhelmed by the multitude of my sin.

I am a sinner saved by grace.  Reality is I was born with a sinful nature.  There is nothing I or anyone else can do about that.  What I seem to fail to focus on is that I am "saved by grace".  It has nothing to do about me.  It has everything to do with what Jesus Chrsit did on the cross for me and you.

Whenever I am made aware of a sin I have committed, it is important that I repent with a contrite heart.  However, what is more important is that I praise God for the prompting of the Holy Spirit.  "He who began a good work in (me) will be faithful to complete it."  This gives me a chance to celebrate what the Savior is doing in my life rather than falling into a deep, dark depression over my sinful nature. 

"My heart, Christ's home."  I invite Jesus to feel free to clean anything that needs to be cleaned.

Monday, March 4, 2013

The Greatest Sin of All


After this weekend of much contemplation and meditation, I have come to believe that I am guilty of the worst sin of all.  I believe that the greatest sin of all is not believing and trusting that the blood of Jesus Christ which was shed on the cross for the sins of the world is enough to cover my sin.  Now I understand why Dr. Harold Mozak told me, "You are the God of your own universe."

Often I have believed that the greatest sin of all is not loving God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength and/or the failure to love my neighbor.  Those were thoughts of younger years. 

"Dear God~

Please forgive me for not accepting and embracing the work you did on the cross for me.  Help me to trust and believe that I have not done the unpardonable sin.  Your Word says that you will remove my sin as far as the east is from the west and Your Word also says that you will remember my sin no more.  Help me to be the light to others and allow you to love others through me.  Help me to embrace your love instead of dwelling on the sins of my past.  Truth be told, there are no sins of my past as you have forgiven and forgotten them.  Too good to be true?  But true!

I love you Lord

John Thomas"
THE THREE GREATEST SINS

Written by: De Haan, Richard Posted on: 05/12/2003

Category: Bible Studies

Source: CCN

THE THREE GREATEST SINS

BLASPHEMY AGAINST THE HOLY SPIRIT

If you were asked to name the greatest sin in the world, what would it be--murder, adultery, robbery, homosexuality? Or would you cite some of the more common evils which work so much harm in society like gossip, envy, or greed? Perhaps you would not single out one particular sin as the very worst, for you are appalled at the numerous reprehensible acts and sordid deeds committed every day.

The Bible, however, does express itself on this subject. It states that three sins--blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, the unpardonable sin, and the sin unto death--carry with them a note of finality and sure judgement that does not mark man's other transgressions. The first, the sin against the Holy Spirit, was a sin of Jesus' day. The unpardonable sin can be committed only by those who are not children of God through faith in Jesus Christ. The sin unto death, on the other hand, involves only believers.

A careful study of what the Bible says about these three great transgressions will be of rich spiritual benefit. First, it will lead us into the Word of God. Secondly, it will constitute a warning to saint and sinner. Thirdly, many who are confused on the subject will receive great comfort when they realize that nothing they have ever done or said has placed them beyond the reach of God's mercy.

THE GRAVITY OF THIS SIN

The Lord Jesus clearly expressed the serious nature of sinning against the Holy Spirit when He said,

Wherefore, I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men; but the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit shall not be forgiven men.

And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him; but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this age, neither in the age to come (Matthew 12:31,32).

Don't try to evade the obvious meaning of these words. Jesus declared that "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit" would not be forgiven. The person guilty of this sin was doomed to be lost forever. He placed himself on the road to Hell, and for him there was no hope of forgiveness.

THE NATURE OF SIN

Since blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is a sin of such magnitude, it is extremely important that we know exactly what it is. Everyone who possesses some knowledge of the Bible realizes that sins like theft, covetousness, envy, pride, gossip, dishonesty--yes, even murder, adultery, and fornication--are forgiven by God. Then, too, instructed believers know that a true follower of Christ could never be guilty of an unforgivable transgression. A child of God may grieve and quench the Holy Spirit, and he may fail to be fully yielded to Him, but it is absolutely impossible for him to do anything that cannot be forgiven.

What did the Lord Jesus mean when He spoke about the unforgivable blasphemy against the Holy Spirit? Many different answers have been given by respected and esteemed theologians and Bible students. Some of the suggestions include (1) continued rejection of Christ, (2) apostasy in time of persecution, (3) a denial that Jesus Christ is God, (4) a rejection of the deity of the Holy Spirit, and (5) using the name of the Holy Spirit in vain. None of these suggestions, however, take sufficient note of the context or the occasion of Christ's words.

In Matthew 12:22 we read that the Lord Jesus had just performed a great miracle. He had cast out demons from a person who was both blind and dumb, and his sight and speech were immediately restored. This demonstration of power had a profound effect upon the people who witnessed it, for Matthew tells us they were "amazed, and said, Is not this (referring to Christ) the son of David? (Matthew 12:23). The way they framed the question indicates that they were inclined to believe He really was the son of David. The religious leaders were alarmed at this reaction, for they saw Christ as a threat to their power. Therefore they gave the blasphemous charge that Jesus cast out demons by "Beelzebub," and the Lord could not allow this accusation to go unanswered.

Wherefore, I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men; but the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit shall not be forgiven men (Matthew 12:31).

J. R. Thompson comments as follows: "Great men are often misunderstood by reason of their very greatness. Aims higher than those of others need other methods than such as are commonly employed by ordinary persons. How much more this must have been the case with the Son of man! His mission was unique. He was altogether His own. He could not fulfill His ministry and do the work of Him who sent Him without stepping aside from the beaten tracks of conduct, and so courting criticism...He could not well conciliate public opinion, for He came to condemn and to revolutionize it. For the most part He went His way without noticing the misrepresentations and the calumnies of men. Yet there were occasions, like the present, when He paused to answer and to confute His adversaries." (The Pulpit Commentary-- Mark, p. 125).

The Pharisees' false accusation had to be answered, for they had deliberately equated the Holy Spirit with Satan. They had said that Jesus performed His mighty works through the power of the devil, when in reality He "cast out demons by the SPIRIT OF GOD" (Matthew 12:28). This grievous blasphemy was uttered in the face of definite evidence that Jesus Christ was in opposition to Satan, and that His mighty works were beneficial to men, not harmful. In this sense the sin cannot be committed today as it was by those religious leaders.

The blasphemy against the Holy Spirit was both a national and individual sin. The leaders of the people, representing the nation, had seen Heaven's credentials to the Messiahship of the Lord Jesus, and had wickedly declared that they had their origin in Hell. This constituted a national rejection of Christ. Therefore the Lord, after issuing the solemn warning about the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, declared that they were "an evil and adulterous generation," and that they would receive no sign from heaven other than His death, burial, and resurrection. (See Matthew 12:39,40.) He further stated,

The men of Nineveh shall rise in judgment with this generation, and shall condemn it; because they repented at the preaching of Jonah; and, behold a greater than Jonah is here (Matthew 12:41).

NATIONAL

The national character of this sin is also set forth in the parable of the unclean spirit. This spirit was cast out of a man, only to return with seven other more wicked than himself, making the "last state of that man...worse than the first. Even so shall it be also unto this wicked generation" (Matthew 12:43-45). The people of Israel and experienced a "house cleaning" through the preparatory ministry of John the Baptist, but because they rejected the Messiah, their house had remained empty. Now, by deliberately ascribing the power of the Holy Spirit, as seen in the works of the Lord Jesus to Satan, that generation os Israelites brought itself into a far worse state than before John the Baptist. Judicial blindness came upon the nation as a whole, and by A.D. 70, within the lifespan of a single generation, the Jewish people had experienced the most fearful time in all their history. Although the generation to which our Lord spoke lost claim to God's national promises because of their blasphemy, individual Israelites could still be saved by trusting the Lord Jesus. Israel as a nation also will someday be converted and enjoy the blessing promised by Almighty God.

INDIVIDUAL

This blasphemy against the Holy Spirit was also an individual sin for which there was no forgiveness. Those people who deliberately, against better knowledge, declared that the works Jesus performed through the power of the Holy Spirit originated with Satan could not be forgiven.

...whosoever speaketh against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this age, neither in the age to come (Matthew 12:32).

One question remains to be answered. Why is it more serious to speak against the Holy Spirit than against the Son of man? Jesus said,

And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him; but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this age, neither in the age to come (Matthew 12:32).

Since Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit are both members of the Godhead, why should blasphemy against one be more serious than against the other? Is one member of the Trinity afforded more honor than another? Why is the distinction made between sinning against the Son of man and against the Holy Spirit? Both are co-equal and co-eternal with the father. The answer is found in recognizing that the Jewish leaders rejected the regal credentials and Messianic claim of the Lord because of ignorance. Though God held them responsible for seeking Christ's death, He knew they did not fully understand what they were doing. After the Holy Spirit had come on the day of Pentecost, Peter said, "I know that through ignorance ye did it, as did also your rulers" (Acts 3:17). Paul expressed the same idea when he said, "Which none of the princes of this age knew; for had they known it, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory" (1 Corinthians 2:8).

The religious leaders of that day were so blinded by prejudice and their own preconceived notions about the Messiah that they did not understand how the lowly Nazarene could be their promised King and Redeemer. but those individuals who brazenly said that the miracles of Jesus were the product of Satan, even though worked by the power of the Holy Spirit, were speaking against better knowledge, for it directly contradicted the evidence right before their eyes. It was obvious that Jesus was opposed to Satan, and that his works were destroying Satan's power. Their declaration that He did these mighty miracles through the power of Satan rather than the Spirit was a deliberate and inexcusable sin.

Remember, the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit cannot be committed today in exactly the same manner as during Christ's public ministry. But this does not mean you cannot commit a sin that is unforgivable. You can harden yourself against the truth even as the religious leaders of Christ's day. If you continue to reject Christ until you leave this life, you will have lost all opportunity for redemption. You should be thankful that you are still alive, and that the door of salvation remains open for you. The message "whosoever will" (Revelation 22:17) is still a wonderful truth for your life. You can pass from spiritual death to life, from darkness to light, by believing on Jesus Christ. You will then know the joy and peace of forgiveness.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life (John 3:16).

Whosoever believeth that Jesus is the Christ is born of God...(1 John 5:1).

Receive Him today!

But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the children of God, even to them that believe on his name (John 1:12).

THE UNPARDONABLE SIN

HAve you ever wondered if any sin is so great that God would never forgive it? Is it possible to fall so deeply into certain practices or commit deeds so evil and perverse that you are beyond the limit of God's forgiving grace? The Bible tells us that in Jesus' day people could be guilty of an unpardonable sin. The Pharisees had accused the Lord of casting out demons by the power of Satan, and Jesus responded to their declaration by saying,

Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies with which they shall blaspheme; But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Spirit hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation; Because they said, He hath an unclean spirit (Mark 3:28-30).

This sin is also spoken of in Matthew 12:22-32 and Luke 12:8-10. When the average person thinks of the unpardonable sin, he usually names one of the more base and sordid evils like sexual perversion, murder, family desertion, drunkenness, drug addiction, or gambling. Instead, this unforgivable sin was the deliberate declaration that Jesus worked miracles by the power of Satan, when in reality He performed them "by the Spirit of God," Matthew (12:28). This blasphemy was committed willfully by the religionists against evidence that could not be contradicted.

Dr. H. D. Spence says it was "that determined hatred of holiness, that awful love of self, which...induced the Pharisee leaders to ascribe His...loving works to the spirit of evil and of darkness. The accusation was no chance one, the fruit of impulse or of passion. They who accused Him knew better. They had heard Him teach, not once, but often; they had seen His works; and yet--though they knew that the whole life, thoughts, and aspirations were true, and were conscious that every word and work was holy, just, and pure--in order to accomplish their own selfish ends, simply because they felt His life and teaching would interfere with them, they dared to ascribe to the devil what their own hearts told them came directly from God." The Pulpit Commentary: Luke, p. 333. Their rejection of Jesus Christ as the true Messiah was at least partly due to the ignorance brought on by their religious traditions. But this declaration, that the works He did were brought about by the power of Satan, was completely inexcusable.

Can this offence be committed today? No! Not at all! It could only occur while Christ was on earth and in actual physical contact with men. Those who were guilty of it had heard with their own ears His words of wisdom, and had witnessed with their own eyes His mighty works. When they, having been blessed with this incontestable evidence, deliberately and willfully ascribed the works of the Lord Jesus to Satan, they were guilty of a sin which no one today can commit in exactly the same manner.

TROUBLING SIN

In spite of all this, however, I can well imagine someone saying, "But I think I have committed this sin. It troubles me, and I worry about it night and day. How can I find peace of mind? How can I know for sure that I am not guilty of the unpardonable sin?" Well, apart from the reasons I have already given, I would like to point out that the very fact you are anxious about it is absolute proof that you have not committed it.

Some time ago I read about a certain person who foolishly came to the conclusion that he had committed this great transgression. He believed he had passed beyond the point of forgiveness. He went to his pastor and sought for some assurance that he might be mistaken. Unburdening his heart to the minister, he told him about his morbid fear that he had "crossed the line" and had committed the sin for which there is no forgiveness. The pastor responded by asking, "And just exactly what sin did you commit?" The troubled soul quickly answered, "I opposed the Word of God." "So did Paul," the pastor replied, "and he was saved." "Oh, but, I also denied Christ," the man blurted out. "So did Peter," said the minister, "and he became one of the greatest and most effective preachers of all time." "Yes, but I doubted the power of Christ even after I received strong evidence in His favor." "But," said the wise pastor, "so did Thomas. Wasn't he forgiven?" The man who had been tormented so long by fears and doubts finally saw the folly of his anxiety, and realized that this thing he dreaded was a misunderstanding of Scripture. He saw that even if such a hopeless state were possible in this age, the very fact that he was so concerned about his spiritual condition proved that he could not have committed this great transgression. No, the "sin against the Holy Spirit" cannot be committed today.

FORGIVENESS--A POSITIVE TRUTH

Therefore, rather than emphasizing the "unforgivable sin" in the passage we have been studying, I would rather see the spotlight focused upon the blessed words found in verse 28, which underscore the wonderful and precious truth of free and gracious forgiveness. Jesus said,

Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies with which they shall blaspheme (Mark 3:28).

That's the message we preach today--"all sins shall be forgiven unto men." Whoever you are, no matter how far you have fallen into sin, whatever it may be, whom it involves, where it was done, or how badly you feel, ALL SINS SHALL BE FORGIVEN UNTO THE SONS OF MEN. You may be bound by lust or chained by habits, or you may be one of the so-called "nicer" people who engage in the more "polite sins" of society, but you are a sinner just the same, for the Bible says, "All have sinned and come short of the glory of God." It makes no difference how you categorize yourself, for "all sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men."

Do you remember the time when the scribes and Pharisees brought an adulterous woman to the Savior? They made the charge,

...Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.

Now Moses, in the law, commanded us that such should be stoned; but what sayest thou? (John 8:4,5).

When they made this hypocritical accusation, the Lord Jesus, ignoring their question, stooped down and wrote with His finger on the ground. They kept pressing for an answer, however, until the Savior stood up, looked at them, and threw out the challenge, "He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her" (John 8:7). He stooped down and again wrote on the sand, and one by one the accusers of the adulteress slipped away, convicted by their own consciences. Jesus was finally left alone with the repentant woman. Looking at her, the Savior asked the question, "Woman, where are those thine accusers? Hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord..." (John 8:10,11). Now listed to Jesus' wonderful proclamation of grace and forgiveness. He said to that shameful and guilty outcast of society, "Neither do I condemn thee; go, and sin no more" (John 8:11). I am happy to declare that this very same forgiveness and freedom from judgment is given to all who admit their guilt and place their trust in Jesus Christ for salvation. The Word of God assures us, "There is, therefore, now no condemnation to them who are in Christ Jesus..." (Romans 8:1). No matter how deeply you have sinned, God extends to you the gracious offer of complete forgiveness of sins. He says 'All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men.'

The Bible scholar Ryle comments on Mark 3:22-30 as follows: "We ought to notice...what a glorious declaration our Lord makes in these verses about the forgiveness of sins. He says "All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies with which they shall blaspheme." These words fall lightly on the ears of many persons, who see no particular beauty in them. But to the man who is alive to his own sinfulness and deeply sensitive to his need for mercy, these words are sweet and precious. "All sins shall be forgiven". The sins of youth and age--the sins of head, and hand, and tongue, and imagination--the sins against all God's commandments--the sins of persecutors, like Paul--the sins of idolaters, like Manasseh--the sins of open enemies of Christ, like the Jews who crucified Him--the sins of backsliders from Christ, like Peter--all, all may be forgiven. The blood of Christ can cleanse all away. The righteousness of Christ can cover all, and hide all from God's eyes. The doctrine here laid down is the crows and glory of the Gospel. The very first thing it proposes to man is free pardon, full forgiveness, complete remission, without money and without price. 'Through this man is preached unto you the forgiveness of sins; and by him all that believe are justified from all thing' (Acts 13:38)." Ryle's Expository Thoughts on the Gospels, p. 55.

CONTINUED REJECTION IS UNPARDONABLE

In the final analysis, the only thing that will keep you from God and knowing His full pardon and forgiveness is continued unbelief! Therefore, though you cannot today be guilty of "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit," you can commit an unpardonable sin by persisting in unbelief. Although the expression, "the unpardonable sin" is not found in the Bible, I believe we are justified in using this term because it expresses the Scriptural teaching that there is danger in delay. If you persist in unbelief, your spiritual sensitivity will become deadened. The longer you postpone, the less likely your ultimate salvation. Though it is true, "while the candle holds to burn, the vilest sinner may return," the person who continues to resist the gracious working of the Holy Spirit may well bring himself into the state of complete indifference. If he dies in this condition, he will go into eternity as a lost sinner.

Unsaved friend, the SIN question has been settled. You are now faced with the SON question. All your sins can be forgiven if you will believe in God's Son, the Lord Jesus Christ. The Bible tells us that God loved the world so much He provided a way to escape the penalty of sin. He who is God became man to be our substitute in human flesh.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was god. And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us...(John 1:1,14).

the Lord Jesus lived the perfect life we could not live and went to the cross to die the death we deserved. That's why 2 Corinthians 5:21 declares that God "made him (Christ)...to be sin for us." The Lord Jesus arose from the grave, and His resurrection was proof that the sacrifice He offered was acceptable to God as a full payment for all sin. Salvation, which includes everlasting life, forgiveness, peace with God, and an eternity in Heaven, is now offered as a free gift to all who will believe. I am thankful that the door of redemption remains open, and that you can still receive the Lord Jesus Christ as your Savior. If the Holy Spirit is speaking to your heart, it's not too late for you. Acknowledge your sinful condition before God, and in simple faith receive the Lord Jesus for salvation. Trust Him, and Him alone, to save you. The Bible says:

That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation (Romans 10:9,10).



THE SIN UNTO DEATH

Many people have been amused and entertained by the popular "happiness is" one-liners. I am thinking especially of those made famous by the "Peanuts" characters created by Charles Schulz. Here are a few examples:

"Happiness," according to Linus, "is a thumb and a blanket." Lucy says, "Happiness is a warm puppy." Linus thinks "happiness is finally getting the silver out," or "the hiccups after they've gone away." Snoopy sees happiness as "walking on the grass in your bare feet."

Many others might be added. Everyone seems to have his own favorite. In fact, the book from which I've quoted these ends with: "Happiness is different things to different people."

These little sayings are entertaining, but their intention is not to set forth the deep and meaningful essence of genuine, lasting happiness. For this you must turn to the Bible, the book from which the whole "happiness is" idea originated.

In the well-known sermon on the mount, for example, the Lord Jesus makes many statements regarding happiness. The word "blessed", which begins each of the beatitudes, means "happy", so they could be translated as follows:

Happiness is being meek. (Happy) are the meek; for they shall inherit the earth (Matthew 5:5).

Happiness is seeking righteousness. (Happy) are they who do hunger and thirst after righteousness; for they shall be filled (Matthew 5:6).

Happiness is being merciful. (Happy) are the merciful; for they shall obtain mercy (Matthew 5:7).

Happiness is being pure in heart. (Happy) are the pure in heart; for they shall see God (Matthew 5:8).

Happiness is being a peacemaker. (Happy) are the peacemakers; for they shall be called the sons of God (Matthew 5:9).

But perhaps the most comprehensive Scriptural one-liner describing happiness is this statement by the psalmist:

Happiness is doing the will of God. (Happy) is every one that feareth the Lord, that walketh in his ways (Psalm 128:1).

This verse says plainly that the way to happiness is to respect God and obey Him. Conversely, sadness is the state of disobedience to God. Since happiness is obeying God, then sadness must be disobeying Him.

One of the most unhappy of all situations for the Christian is to be guilty of the "sin unto death". You will recall from our previous studies of The Three Greatest Sins that "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit" and the "unpardonable sin" cannot be committed by a believer. The first of these sins was a transgression that could be committed only by those who lived when Jesus walked upon the earth, and therefore it does not exist today. The "unpardonable sin" is restricted to those who have not received the Lord JEsus Christ as Savior. The sin unto death, however, is of a different nature. The apostle John says this about it:

And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us; And if we know that he hear us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him. If any man see his brother sin a sin which is not unto death, he shall ask, and he shall give him life for them that sin not unto death. There is a sin unto death; I do not say that he shall pray for it. All unrighteousness is sin, and there is a sin not unto death (1 John 5:14-17).

Now, just what is this transgression called "a sin unto death"?

A SIN OF THE SAINTS

The sin unto death is first of all a sin of the saints. John says, "If any man see his brother sin a sin". The person involved is a brother in Christ and therefore a Christian.

PHYSICAL DEATH

Secondly, the consequence of this sin is physical death. Dr. A. C. Gaebelein commented on this passage of Scripture, saying, "The brother is a believer. On account of sinning he is chastened. God permits sickness to come upon him and the sinning not having been unto death (physical death only) he is raised up. However, a believer may go on willfully sinning and remain there dishonoring Christ. He is to be taken away out of the land of the living, cut off by death. No request could be made for such of one. The question of death is not eternal condemnation but only physical death." The Gospel of Matthew, pp. 251,252.

A STATE OR HABIT

Thirdly, the sin unto death is not one single act of transgression, but a state or habit of sin which a person has willfully chosen and in which he continues. Someone has said it is "constant and consummate opposition to God."



INDIVIDUAL

A fourth characteristic of the sin unto death is that it is individual in nature. The same sin that is "mortal" for one does not bring physical death upon another. You see, we tent to categorize certain sins and rate them as bad, very bad, and extremely bad, but God sees them differently.

...for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart (1 Samuel 16:7).

He knows our background, heredity, environment, the battles we face, and the spiritual light we have received. For that reason, while some sins for certain individuals might bring the most severe judgment, these identical practices in the lives of others, even though sorely displeasing to God, may not bring forth the same judgment.

WILLFUL AND DELIBERATE

The sin unto death is not only continual, it is willful and deliberate. It is also, very likely, an open sin that brings reproach upon the cause of Christ. Therefore, for the sake of the Gospel, and in order that the "spirit" of the one sinning may be saved in the day of the Lord Jesus (1 Corinthians 5:5), God takes the guilty one to Heaven by His chastening hand. But he must still someday stand before the judgement seat of Christ (2 Corinthians 5:10,11).

TEACHING OF THE EPISTLES

The apostle Paul also refers to the same sin, though not specifically calling it "the sin unto death". In 1 Corinthians 11 he said that unjudged sin in the lives of certain Christians had resulted in physical ailments for some and death for others. He therefore admonished Corinthian believers to diligent self-examination and confession of sin before partaking of the Lord's supper.

But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of that bread, and drink of that cup. For he that eateth and drinketh unworthily, eateth and drinketh judgment to himself, not discerning the Lord's body. For this cause many are weak and sickly among you, and many sleep. For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged. But when we are judged, we are chastened of the Lord, that we should not be condemned with the world (1 Corinthians 11:28-32).

Paul in 1 Corinthians 5 gives additional information about the "sin unto death".

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Friday, March 1, 2013

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...

                                                      


Tim Page and Donald Harbeck worked together at the Sportsmen's Lodge in Studio City, California.  Tim Page was a Captain and Donald was the Maitre'D.  Both of these men had the hopes and dreams of becoming famous in the television and motion picture industry.  Donald thought they were on their way when Tim got him his first part in a movie, "The Best of Times" starring Robin Williams and Kurt Russell.  They were both shocked that their names were not listed on the credits.  Who knew that "extras"  names were not listed?  That was over twenty years ago.

Shortly after that, these two men went into two entirely different directions.  Tim listened to God's call for his life and started Total Involvement Ministry (TIM).  Google for yourself and see all that this man has done over the past two decades.

"Mirror, Mirror on the Wall, who has served Christ best of all?" Donald inquires of the looking glass.  When he looks in the mirror, he is genuinely happy to see the reflection of Tim Page.  Other reflections appear like Mother Teresa and Francis of Assisi.  What saddens Donald is that his reflection never shows up.  The closest thing to his reflection is the vision of the Wicked Witch from "Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs".  Truth be told, Donald has better served Satan than he has to Jesus Christ.

Tim is one of the best friends anyone could ever hope for.  He has tried to email, write and call Donald on multiple occasions.  Ask Tim how he feels and he will tell you, "I choose to be happy!"  Donald has severe depression and has struggled with no will to live and thoughts of suicide.  The light that reflects from Tim and the darkness that looms around Donald is too much for Donald to even consider reconnecting with a visit from Tim.

One day, Jesus is going to separate the sheep from the goats.  Tim will be chosen to be among the sheep as his life has reflected nothing less than God's goodness.  Donald fears that he will be cast with the goats and eventually be cast into the sea of fire in Hell as his life of lurking in the shadows by serving the evil one in pursuit of riches, fame and fortune.

Maybe this is just the middle of the story.  Maybe the life of Tim Page can be an inspiration to Donald and others that "the power of one to make a difference in the world" solely relys on being plugged into the only true source of love ~ God himself.  Maybe one day, Donald will return those emails, letters and phone calls and set up a day where the two can meet.  Unfortunately, it will not be this week.  It is even hard for me to communicate with Donald.  Many times, I am unable to find him in the darkness of the world he exists.

Thank you Tim for all the love and kindness you have shown to so many.  May God bless and keep you.  May the light and love of Jesus Christ continue to reflect in and from you.  Know that Donald loves you.  Know that I love you.  However, never forget how much God loves you.